lost...

Sometimes in the night,

I feel so strange,

Nothing seems right

I feel afraid,

So I turn on all the lights

I feel alone,

And I stare with trepidation,

At the phone,

Wondering if it's going to talk to me,

All on it's own

And I get lost,

Inside myself

In the middle of the night,

I'm someone else,

That I don't know

Nightfall lifts me up so high,

Even when I'm crawling,

I feel like I can fly

But I'm afraid to,

Spread my wings and try,

Because...

I just might die...

Sometimes in the night,

I hear voices praising me,

With all their might

I feel disconnected,

So I turn off all the lights

I feel passive,

I feel aggressive,

I wonder if all of this,

Is just a lesson,

That I'm not learning...

And I get lost,

Inside myself

In the middle of the night,

I'm someone else,

That I don't know

Nightfall lifts me up so high,

Even when I'm crawling,

I feel like I can fly

But I'm afraid to,

Spread my wings and try,

Because...

I just might die...

I might die,

And I don't care!

I can smell my fear,

Upon the night's air!

I hear whispering incantations,

That just a second ago...

Were not there!

I get lost...So lost...

Inside myself

In the middle of the night,

I'm someone else,

That I don't know

Into the night I go...

Nightfall lifts me up so high,

Even when I'm crawling,

I feel like I can fly

But I'm afraid to,

Spread my wings and try,

Because... I just might die...

- December 19, 2009