An unspeakable restlessness has gripped me.

And within it, the slightest shimmers of comfort.

I feel as though I am walking alone in a wilderness... in an utter aloneness... bewildered, but not quite. Sad, but not deeply. Moved - and yes that I am!
Sometimes I doubt if I am really grounded in reality. The world does something else, and I see something else. What I see then eventually comes true. The distance between my seeing and its realization, though, sometimes seems to stretch.

Listen to your heart

EXACTLY

at the moment when it speaks! :)

Do exactly as it says!

You missed again, man!

How unlearned!

You did not pay heed again, right? None of your signs shall come from the outside. You *must* live your principles NOW and in entirety.

DO. NOT. BE. FOOLED. BY. THE. RELAXATION. THAT. IS. GRANTED. TO. YOU.

You will end up amongst blind fools, banging their heads against walls within which they shall find themselves confined! Do not be fooled at all. This time calls upon your highest ethic, your sacrifice of self-interest, your avoidance of that which is convenient and tempting. Do not be fooled at all. All lies are to come to an end. Very soon, you shall see.

there are matters that do not even need our actions.
they appear to us, and then they dissolve.
we do nothing more than observe them.

Let them come, and let them go.

Do not think that you are the lord of every bit of your life.
There are other people in this space where we co-exist.

Let them be.
That is your freedom.

Do not choose the version of freedom that enslaved minds envision: a situation where they face nothing.

there is no mastery of the future.

there is no way that the past can be erased such that it is not a living part of one's self.

One comes only as far as the Present.

remember, real magic is hidden, hidden in the quiet moments...!!

Iqbal says

"Tukhum-e-Iqbal az Rumi ast"

(that is, Iqbal is an offshoot of Rumi's [ideology]).

but Rumi himself says,

Why are you so afraid of silence?

Silence is the root of everything.

If you spiral into its void,...

A hundred voices will thunder messages you long to hear.

the best first thing a human mind can do is to observe, to follow closely by wonder - and then question. In questions are theiranswers, and they reveal over Space when Time so intends.

a mind which wonders is a mind that wanders, in a beatific idleness. the beauty of a blue, blue night cannot be caught, much less the secret feelings it arises in the hearts and minds of the amused young.

"Where has this world come from?"
"Am I part of this, or is this in some way separate from me?"
"How many stars are there in this constellation?"
"What if I die, do I go up there?"

And then the occasional childlike: "Do fairies really descend in the night, and put that toffee under my head? Why not ice-cream? Fairies can do everything!"

I am so madly uncertain, and afraid. But continue to love I do in the most uncertain of times. Fearing the process is foolish of me, eh, because didn't I just say I *have* seen the Architect's Design?

The point of love is: to aid us into the vast Unknown! The point of that is The Point.

I was put in the midst of this chaotic construction, and as ever, my task is to remember the origin. Look at this word again!
Re-member:

Re: Again

Member: Part

Remember: Join the parts again.
Become Whole again.

Return to the Original One!

Nebulous..

I am like a palace under construction that is opening its eyes, becoming gradually conscious... and is astounded and awed at once to observe at what's going on: The massive work at hand, the design, the beauty, the gestalt of the whole process of construction overwhelms my awakening consciousness. Here I see a beautiful window, and I am captured by the beauty of what I am looking like and at. There I see a loose pile of bricks, and am horrified at what seems to be a disorderly incompletion.

My being swerves between a love and fear of myself - and by extension, for the Architect. I have moments of absolute certainty about my beauty, and instances of utter doubts of the project.

The benevolence of the Universe that was so clearly visible to me had suddenly hidden, leaving my heart with an inexplicable feeling of contraction. I was wondering what happened? What wrong have I done - for, thanks to my culture, I indulge in the self blame-game more often than I'd like?

Then occurred to me a new analogy, a word: Nebulous.

Book 9, Number 9.4.18:

Yahya related to me from Malik from Ibn Shihab from Salim ibn Abdullah that Abdullah ibn Umar used to say,

"I pray the prayer of a traveler as long as I am undecided whether to remain somewhere or not, even if I am detained for twelve nights."

Do not keep the company of anyone whose state does not awaken yours, or words direct you to Allah. You might be doing badly, and be shown your goodness by keeping the company of someone even worse. - Ibn ‘Ata’ Illah’s

“The Hikam,” taught in Sunnipath’s.

Islamic Spirituality:

In other words, one may mistakenly believe that he is righteous while sitting among those who are worse than him. Hence, one should spend time with those who are more pious and refrain from the company of the heedless.

A thief entered the house of a Sufi and found nothing there to steal. As he was leaving, the dervish, sensing his disappoitment, threw him the blanket on which he had been lying.

Sa'di

I asked a child who was carrying a lighted candle,

"Where does this light come from?"

The child blew out

the candle and asked me,

"Tell me where it has gone and

I will tell you where it came from"

--

Sufi Wisdom

O wondrous ecstatic eyes,

O wondrous long locks,

O wondrous wine worshipper,

O wondrous mischievous sweetheart.

As he draws the sword,

I bow my head in prostration so as to be killed,

O wondrous is ...his beneficence,

O wondrous my submission.

O wondrous amorous teasing,

O wondrous beguiling,

O wondrous tilted cap,

O wondrous tormentor.

Do not reveal the Truth;

in this world blasphemy prevails,

Khusrau;

O wondrous source of mystery,

O wondrous knower of secrets

-

Ameer khusrau

I am amazed at he who knows death is certain, yet he laughs

I am amazed at he who knows that the Fire is true, yet he rejoices

I am amazed at he who witnesses how life changes the condition of the people, yet he feels safe

I am amazed at the one who knows that Qadr is true, yet he tires himself, vigorously seeking the bounties of life

-

Anonymous

Knowledge for Knowledge

From Jaabir (radiyAllâhu 'anhu) who said that Allâh's Rasul Nabi E Kareem Hazrat Mohammed (salAllâhu 'aliahi wa'sallam) said:

"Do not acquire knowledge in order to compete with the scholars, nor to argue with the ignorant, nor to gain mastery over the gatherings. Since whoever does that, then: The Fire! The Fire!" (27)

Consider, May Allâh have mercy on you, the admonition and the less
on contained in what Ibn Abee Haatim ar-Raazee narrates, he said: I entered into Damascus upon the students of hadîth and I passed by the circle of Qaasim al-Joo'ee.

I found a group sitting around him and he was speaking. Their appearance amazed me and I heard him saying:
'Seize the benefit of five things from the people of your time:

when you are present you are not known;
when you are absent you are not missed;
when you are seen your advice is not sought;
when you say something your saying is not accepted;
and when you have some knowledge you are not given anything for it.

I also advise you with five things:

when you are treated unjustly then do not behave unjustly;
when you are praised then do not become happy;
when you are criticised do not be upset;
when you are not believed then do not become angry;
and if they act deceitfully towards you do not act deceitfully towards them.'

Ibn Abee Haatim said: So I took that as my benefit from Damascus.

So consider, May Allâh protect us and you from the evils of the soul, how sincere desire for knowledge and benefit led him to listen to one who certainly possessed less knowledge than himself in order to benefit his understanding and to acquire some knowledge.


- Atif Hussain

listen...

listen.
listen closely.

what did I tell you?

You must see the flaw:

you are asserting the principles that you are not living.
the key is to live your principles!

For your own sake!

listen!

the doors of the Source are closed to those who do not integrate.
In fact, the door is created out of dis-integration!
layers of your SELF are the thresholds!
Do not split, do not scatter yourself over space and time.
Fear not, desire not!

Do not be amongst the fools.
Do not be misled.

listen!

Hold on to the rope of Allah.
Hu alone is the One Who shall not disappoint you.
Do not forget Hu as your purpose of being.

the light at the end of the tunnel is fading.

the faster I run, the farther it becomes.

Soon everything is swallowed by an eerie darkness.

I hear laughing -

an evil cackle echoes all around me.

A familiar voice.

Is that me?

Words...

I can't clearly make them out.

"Forever...lost..."

then

silence...

A distant rumble...

Closer...

Crashing waves.

Water surrounds me.

Rising,

I try to stay afloat.

I'm flailing like a fish on land.

It's no use.

I'm drowning.

I can no longer hear,speak, think.

I've reached the end.

*
when I wrote this, the lines:
fading.
darkness.
voice.
Words...
silence.
Crashing
Rising,
flailing
drowing.
end.

were all off to the right... tried to make them make sense if read alone, but I don't think it worked out too well.. Oh well, whatever...